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Name: Shelly
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Riverside
Birthday: 3/12/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Growing with the Lord, pictures, flip flops, reeses peanut butter cups, WORLD CHANGERS, talking on the phone, friends, reading, scrapbooking, laughing so hard my stomach hurts, home videos, cards, family, the smell of the beach, berts bees, pedicures, my big green pillow, knowing that i will never be alone, waiting for the day when i will be swept off my feet, yellow, stumpy, nicknames, old memories that make me smile on the inside, forgetting about tomorrow to play just for today, being carefree, rollercoasters, craft projects, the random adventures that become cherished moments, movies, cookie baking, staying up so late it almost hurts, showers, the feeling of finishing all the laundry, the scent of fresh air, bubbles, kisses from dad, 1-2-3-SCREAM moments, lip gloss, hairbows, having a good cry, singing in the car or in the shower, naps, swimming, being a fat kid, eating out, ice-cream of all flavors and frozen yogurt too, san diego, sunsets on the beach, making every day count...
Occupation: EDC Teacher @ Riverside Christ
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AIM:  shellybelly2426
Member Since:
1/15/2006
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| note: i am so blessed to be involved in a Bible Study where i weekly watch some of my dearest friends sharing their hearts with one another and cultivating growth and development. We all have such a different perspective on life - we are all at different places, struggling with different things, and yet i am amazed at the fact that our God is the same and meets all our needs equally. the Bible is so clear that iron sharpens iron - i am endlessly thankful to have relationships that are sharpening and strengthening my faith. Thank you Lord for the gift of friendship and all those I hold dear. I pray they are richly blessed and daily touched by Your love. | | |
| i don't know what i'm supposed to think or how i'm supposed to feel. i am so inadequate, unable, incompetant. i don't want to do anything or love anyone or go anywhere. i feel so weak, so lost, so confused. i don't know how, or when, or why...i am trying desperately to understand and yet no answer. in prayers i know i am to continue, to press on, presevere, endure. i have meditated on the scriptures - tried to find strength in the joy of the Lord. my head has the knowledge, but my heart isn't getting the translation. i know i have all i need in You, and yet need so many things. i need direction and guidance...hope. i need the promise that somehow, someday everything will be ok again...that eventually the smile won't be fake and the laughter won't be as temporary. that in time my eyes will sparkle again and won't reveal the pain inside - that the inside will be a pure reflection of His grace and mercy and a testimony of all He can do. | | |
| so my very last semester of college has officially begun. it has only been 3 days and already i am feeling slightly overwhelmed. this is really it. in only 109 days (of course i made the official count already) i will be completely done with the studies requried to obtain my bachelors degree. so strange. i vividly remember the day that i moved to CBU and walked on 1C for the very first time...it was all so surreal. i feel as though crossing that stage May 5 will feel shockingly similar and my emotions will in so many way resemble those of that feeble, frightened 18 year old freshmen. although i do not know what the future holds or all that lies ahead, i have hope - hope that whatever comes next will be as amazing as this period in my life has been - that i will grow through the stretch and challenge of all the knowledge i possess being only the foundation and starting point of all education that is to come - hope that discovery will always overwhelm me, laughter will always resound from within me, and smiles will someday be genuine and sincere - hope that through whatever lies ahead i will be surrounded by others who love me and that i will be holding the hand of Christ, the everlasting and eternal Savior and owner of my heart...the BEST HOPE that ever existed...the only hope that matters...and the hope that will last for all time. | | |
| so...although i am uber excited about many things in my life currently - i must admit that my heart is heavy and burdened today. there are so many things happening in the lives of those around me. i am hurt and lost and don't know how to help or support or encourage. i desperately want to show love but don't have the words to say or the actions to prove it. one of my dearest friends is hurting today and although my prayers are with her, there is nothing more i can do. i can't eliminate the situation or make everything ok. i can't condone the behaviors that have paved the road to heartbreak and disappointment. physically she is fine and yet emotionally and spiritually the only word to describe is: broken. oh i wish with all my heart that i could understand - that i could see from her perspective to thus gain appreciation for her observations. however, she walks alone - hurting and wishing someone would take her hand. He is there...does she see Him? does she want Him? so many questions left unanswered...such a lack of comprehension on my part. there is no solution on my end - all i can do is pray and wait... God will work in His time - i guess i just have to be ready to catch her when she really falls. | | |
| so in case you were not already aware, the North American Mission Board has officially designated another week of World Changers to occur in Juana Diaz, Puerto Rico! (YES that is where i went last year!) the first project apparentally filled quite quickly because puerto rico rocks...and the second week (back to back) is now also completely full. if you were wondering as to whether there is ministry to be completed on the island - the answer is undoubtedly yes! thank you Lord for working in the hearts and lives of those coordinating world changers for this summer and allowing more students to witness your work and miracles in the lives of the puerto rican people. AMAZING!!! | | |
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